December 9 Meeting

The rain and the wind was blowing hard against the large windows of our meeting place. The room where we were refugeeing was chilly and I shivered a bit in my leather jacket. I went and got myself a hot cup of coffee, wishing that the room were a little warmer or I was at least sitting in front of my counselor's fire as I had been last night as Vi had been the night before. That caused another little shiver I could not blame on the temperature of the room as I sat down beside Eric Lover, huddling around the cup of coffee like one would a camp fire, but getting little heat from it.

One of the things I noticed tonight, 25 1/2 weeks til June, was that none of the men of our group were here. I glanced all around me looking for God Speed and Hoyt and Dude but they were MIA.

"Where are the men?" I asked.
"I don't know," said Eric Lover. Liz and Mel came in.
"Hey Liz, where are the guys?" I asked.
"Didn't you get an email from GS? He said he got a little email from the counselors that they wanted to just speak to the women tonight," she said, putting down her bag. Poor Liz looked a little beat from moving, but she had checked in at our temporary home at the AS.org forum.
"Why do they just want to speak to us?" I asked. Liz shrugged. Eric Lover checked her little phone.
"I got a message from GS," she said. "I bet that you had already left for the meeting and just didn't get it, is all."

I shrugged and slumped down in my chair. We had done some hard core speculating and I thought for sure that we would all be together to discuss the things we had talked about but this situation had me a little nervous. It reminded me of the time in the sixth grade when they took all us little girls into the gym and told us about "growing up" and becoming "women" and the embarrassing little books they gave us from the Kotex company. Surely it was not going to be that sort of talk.

On the other hand, there were a lot of hormones on the forum floor yesterday. Perhaps the counselors were going on a fact finding mission. Would the lady counselor be the only one here? Or would the other counselors be there as well. This change in the routine was going to be interesting.

After everyone was seated, I could see Nia was there and Iluvtheviking and Linzy and Sweetandwild and Lina and Westexan and Vi and Minnie and Raki and Renee, all sitting in our circle, the spaces in our circle where the fellahs usually sit looking like places where teeth had dropped out of our little smile.

Suddenly, the lights went out except for the center panel and I could see the lead counselor leaning against the door in his accustomed place and the southern counselor sitting in his chair beside him and without turning I could sense the presence of the lady counselor. Her young protege was not there.

"Welcome ladies," said the lead counselor. "How are you doing tonight?"
We responded in the positive for the most part. Of course Westexan with her time coming round was a little less able to be comfortable. The lead counselor began to walk around the circle and casually removed his leather jacket and spread it gallantly over her lap and stomach and then made his way back around to take his place at the door.
"So, where are the guys?" I asked.
"We decided we wanted to talk to you ladies about some things that have been said on the forum," he said obliquely.
"Can you be a bit more specific?"asked Iluvtheviking.
"Don't be shy dearest, you were quite plain about what you were talking about in the forum," he said. "I thought you ladies would feel more comfortable speaking without the sighing and moaning of your male counterparts on the forum when speaking of things about love, passion..."
"Sex?" I said. "You want to have a sex talk with us?"
"In a manner of speaking," said my counselor.
"What would you like to know?" asked Liz, who suddenly realized just how wrong that came out. The lead counselor laughed, that deep laugh that made a girl, regardless of her loyalties close her eyes for a second and press her heart as she felt his laugh vibrate all over her body.

"The question is, what would you like to know?" the lead counselor said.

What wouldn't I like to know...what wouldn't any of us like to know. I knew that somewhere deep down in those foggy memories of our one on one counseling sessions that we knew alright, we knew very well the answers of our questions about what it was like to be with one of them. But the memory was just outside our reach, like a name that escapes you and you desperately wanted to remember it. You saw the face of the thing, but not the name of the thing. It was frustrating to remember so many little details, like the curve of a spine, the veins on the arms or hands, the slightly dry but not unpleasant personal scent, the feel of someone's chest against yours, perhaps the pressure of their legs against yours. The coolest touch on the hottest night. Suddenly the room was no longer chilly and I opened my jacket a little to invite the cooler air into my clothes.

"What do you think those of us can do for you?" asked the female counselor.

"Well, there is the fact of plain old experience," said Raki. "Bill and Eric and Pam and any older Vampire would be well versed in the art...." her voice trailed off.
"And though Eric feigns indifference, I think he would be very interested in a relationship with a human who intrigues him," said Lina.

"Plus, I think that as interested as we are in them, they are interested in us," said Nia. "After all, the Connection wrote about it in book one. She said: 'Bill was lying beside me, looking at me. I realized that he liked to do this. Perhaps it was because he could hear my heart pounding because he could hear things I couldn't hear. Perhaps he was watching the pulse in my neck because he could see things I couldn't see,' I think that is true of all of them."

"But could you imagine how inadequate you might feel since you didn't have their experience. It would always be good for you, but what about them?" asked Linzy.
"But if you paid attention and let them teach you, you would really learn a lot from them," said Vi, blushing a little.
"I like to learn new things," I said, grinning ruefully at my forwardness but illiciting a round of rowdy laughter. "But seriously, why would you go back to a regular guy. I mean, come on, say you made love with Bill or Eric or Pam, would you really find human guys or gals all that appealing? I think that is what pissed Jason off so much about Dawn and Maudette being with Vampires...it wasn't some sort of species pride he was feeling, he was feeling that whole manhood pride being challenged."

"Do you think just any Vampire could teach you things?" asked my counselor.

"No," was the adamant reply around the room. We had seen Liam in action and it was obvious he was a selfish a-hole.
"I imagine there are Vampires who are less interested in the pleasure of their partner," said Minnie, who was our quietest member. We all perked up when she spoke. "But I imagine that a Vampire like Eric would like the intensity of an enthusiastic partner who would not be opposed to exploring his...ehem...treasures and not opposed to allowing themselves to be explored. Sort of like sex on the dark side. And since they don't really hunt anymore, I imagine that sex is the closest they can come to feeling the physical excitement they felt when they pounced on their prey."

The lead counselor and the southern counselor looked at each other. Bingo, that was it. All the excitement building up to turn the corner have that golden moment before they strike was what what was the best thing for them. All that blood and their hearts racing. If Bill and Eric were in the room now, they would be dizzy with the sounds of our hearts pounding, our pulses racing with the mere contemplation of of our more carnal desires.

"So, you would not merely go with a man because they were Vampire?" asked the lady counselor.

"No, I am no fangbanger. I may be a junkie, but I am a Bill head," I said, adamantly. (Though I do confess to looking at Eric when he is on before me, drinking in the golden Viking paleness, all 6 1/2 feet of him.) I love you Bill, I thought, but I knew if Eric were before me....he would be hard to resist. Perhaps I could claim he glamoured me...that is as good an excuse as any. "But I do wonder something."

"And what would that be Aslinn?" asked the lead counselor.
"What is sex really like between Vampires, and not that craziness we saw with Bill and Lorena, that was more about blood lust than lust. I'm talking about hot, passionate, sex between two Vampires," I said.
"Well, perhaps you will find out," said the lead counselor.